Second Cycle Done! Ready for the last one...

...but my body wasn't.

I was supposed to start my last chemo week yesterday, but my white blood cells are low AGAIN. Too low to start chemo, so I have to do 3 rounds of injections to encourage my bones to make more white blood cells and another blood test and hopefully I can start my last cycle next Monday. I just have to get through the exhaustion and the nasty bone pain that come with the extra help.

Cycle 2 wasn't awful, but I wasn't having a blast either. It was probably the hardest on me emotionally than it was physically. I had the usual nausea and fatigue, but my mind was so tired of the daily drive to the hospital and the way I looked in the mirror. I have had my fair share of overcoming my self-esteem issues, but my baldness and my face showing the extra pounds the steroids have gifted me really haven't done me well. Before this whole health journey God put me on started, I was going to the gym and feeling really good about myself, but it feels like all my hard work went down the drain.

I'm trying to help myself feel better though. I'm keeping good care of my wig to make sure it always looks nice, I bought magnetic eyelashes and eyeliner to make up for the eyelashes I have lost, and I got back into making my eyebrows the fleekiest eyebrows anyone ever did see. I don't always feel great about the way that I'm looking, but I'm trying to see my bald head as a badge of strength through the adversity that I'm facing.

With that being said, I am SO ready to get this over with and start working out and growing my hair back.